makeup

[poem] war paint

Instead of crying, I did my makeup in the middle of the night. Here are my thoughts.


When your words land
like fists,
instead of fighting back,

I will paint my eyelids the hues
of a fresh bruise.

I will choose shades that look
like black eyes
and old wounds. Like
how warriors smear their faces
with the blood of enemies slain,

I will take my pain
and beat my face bold with it;

with every brush stroke, declare
I am done with hiding.

I am done with apologizing.
I am done shrinking myself
to the size of your expectations;

wearing your accusations,
allowing them to tint and taint me.

If you do not like my colors,
I will not tell you I am sorry.

I am not sorry.

I am not sorry.

I will never let you make me sorry again.

Fin.

[outfit post] Siren (80s, Baby)

Top: CTFC Studio (mother’s closet)
Jeans: Topshop
Shoes: Via Venetto
Earrings: Shoppee
Color (eyeshadow, blush, lipstick): Ellana Mineral Cosmetics
Highlight: NARS Orgasm Liquid Illuminator

I started raiding my mother’s closet for clothes at the age of eleven (right before puberty set in) and basically never stopped. Over the years, I’ve squirreled away several of her pieces for my own wardrobe–we live together; she can always take them back anyway if she remembers I have them–but it’s only this year that I’ve been brave enough to dip into the more obviously dated pieces, like this tie-front cropped button-down from some place called CTFC Studio (anyone ever heard of it?) that I ripped the shoulder pads out of (even if those do come back, my shoulders are broad enough without them, thanks).

When I was younger, I gravitated to Mum’s old Benetton stuff: innocuous, preppy items that aged a lot better than my early 2000s uniform of too-tight statement tee and flared jeans. I used to laugh at pieces like this shirt I’m wearing now, wrinkling my nose at the bold patterns and outsized lettering, calling it hopelessly out-of-style. “You’ll see,” Mama would say, then, “These’ll come back again.”

I guess she was right.

Photos by Maidz Caliwara
Shot with Huawei P20 Lite + KujiCam App (Filter: VI10)

[beauty blog] Lazy Girl Fave: LUSH Lip Tint

Largely due to Instagram, I’ve managed to master the 2K16 standard made-up face: brows on fleek, contour to slay, matte lip, rose-gold blush, and highlight that might not kill a unicorn but may or may not blind it. Thanks to the power of a truck ton of powder, I too can look like the vaguely blurry image of a Kardashian, complete with selfies. And, honestly, the journey to getting there can be a lot of fun…

sometimes.

Honestly, despite my full-to-bursting makeup trunk, most days I can’t even muster the energy to even lift a Beauty Blender, which is why I’m constantly on the lookout for products that’ll give me a little extra oomph for when I feel like sticking with my #IWokeUpLikeThis face. While I haven’t yet found a true miracle-in-a-bottle just yet, I think I’ve come pretty close with this Lush Lip Tint.


On the surface, it looks like one of those standard organic makeup deals, but do not let appearances deceive! This 4g tube packs a full face, sans brows (because, let’s face it, there are days you can’t be bothered with those either).


The product smells like, well, a Lush store, all candy-like and sugary instead of the usual chemical-vanilla that most matte lipsticks use. Darn tube smells edible, but thankfully doesn’t have a flavor otherwise I might have eaten it by now.

I bought the shade “It Started With a Kiss,” which is this peachy-coral shade with a touch of pink. There are two others: a shimmery nude, and a true bubblegum pink. The shimmery nude looked like it would work great as a highlighter, but maybe not on my lips. The bubblegum pink was, well, too pink. I sprang for what looked like the safest choice, though to be honest I was a bit hesitant at first.


Thank goodness I decided to buy it, because boy would I have missed out! The product is quite solid, and non-greasy, unlike the usual organic balms. It feels a little like rubbing a crayon over your lips, but in a good way–the tint does not feel like it will budge! And, while the color looked rather orange on my arm, on my lips it applied pleasantly natural-looking, sort of like a Korean lip look.


What made this product super worth it though was the fact that it works as a stick blush. While this isn’t a use advertised on the package, the Lush ladies were quick to inform me of this dual-purpose. This peachy-orange-pink looks a whole lot more healthy and radiant than my usual dark-pink liquid lip and cheek, and applies much smoother, glossing over the pores instead of sinking into them.


Maybe it’s the shade, but somehow this stick makes my skin overall look softer and glossier. I feel a bit like a K-Drama actress, and despite being Chinese, that’s a look I’m pretty game to run with.


Basically, this tiny tube did my whole face in about three minutes flat. It smells amazing, applies pretty well, and looks awesome, if I do say so myself. 10/10 would recommend to a fellow lazy girl!

~aRT~